so my house is messy. yep. messy messy messy. my clothes are backed up.
can you guess what's happened? i've been sick. I HATE BEING SICK.
who, exactly, is supposed to take care of the mom when she's sick? no one. My wonderful husband did let me sleep after he got home from work, but after that, i was on my own. he had to go to bed. i felt so bad. i was scared i was getting the flu, but i guess not. THANK GOD! because i feel so much better today.
well...actually my back hurts and i still feel crappy, but i feel much better compared to yesterday.
today is the last full day before christmas vacation. the kids go for half a day tomorrow and then that's it. they are out until next year. i will probably lose my mind. hubby is still going to try to stick to the schedule which means i will get up and he will go to bed around eight. that's fine. it's just harder when all four of them are here.
and i see you looking at me. "and you want to adopt another one??" you ask.
yes. yes i do.
it isn't about me "having another one." it isn't because we hastily made the decision to not have any more children. we didn't. we know we don't want anymore babies. that much is decided. i want to be done with that. but i do want to bring another child into my home so that we can make his life better, and i believe with us doing that, that he will be making ours better too.
i'm not a saint. i'm not crazy.
i've always heard this saying and i believe it, although at times i am thinking He has way too much faith in me...but i have heard "God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called." and that's it. i feel like this is what God wants me to do. simple as that. it's up to Him to help me out with the rest.
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